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today i delete the blog here..cos it is bout my mum n me.i feel like if i write here seem like "不孝"..actually it is a small matter,but i look it as a great problem for me.i get concern from my frens’ comment ,i happy and feel touch when i get my fren advise and concern.thanks yichi and huili!!its a big power for me to solve the problem.i thought u all will scold me but console me.u2 give me courage to voice out my heart matter.let me talk again this story between my mum and me.among the 5 sibling,i m the 4th one.the youngest daughter is me.at home,i feel i m the most protected.coz everytime i get permission to go out to have gathering v ple frens or to join some pbhp camp,my mum 1st action is say "no".i donoe y??coz its not an unhealthy activities for me.it is a very good chance for me to join ppl and learning things.everythime i will demand hardly to get my target but everytime i seem just make her angry.so acassionally i always put aeroplane to my frens.origina i really desire to go,but due to my mum OBJECTION,so i just be a guai guai nui at home.i remember when primary scl i m 4年级,even i wan to go pasar malam,just very near from my house,just 3min distance cycle to there.my classmates invite me to go but i cant go coz my mum dont allow me to go.so i just stay at home.everytime my fren invite me,i also cant go.its really make me crazy.sometime i cry to beg her but she insist "no".so all my frens also know wat my mother’s style and they will lesser to invite me to outing.act i feel sad coz i dont wan to argue v my mum. as i grow up,i need the adult respect.but everytime any latest news at home,my mum sure tell my eldest sis 1st.so how bout me??my sister study outside.i just sit beside her,y dont she tell me 1st.everytime i ask i only know.y i get this treat.i also ur daughter,i also need ur love and concern.i remember at CNY,i tel and remind her good good bout this prob.but till now,the prob still exist.i donoe is me gt prob or??nothing can make me so hurt except her.even my bf make me angry also not as sad as i gt prob v my mum.sometime i shopping v mum and eldest sis,she 10time gt 9 time reject the clothes that i choose.she just said"不美啊！without reason.i ask y but no ans.she just listen my sister’s comment.i get hurt,u noe?therefore as i grow up,i try learn to more good taste to suit her.did she mind and care bout my feeling?sometime i very xiaoqi,will get jealous if she treat other gal than me..she owaz say i m the most lucky coz i have more time stay at home and i not appreciate it,when i go out to study,she tell me i only realize the advantage at home.be the youngest daughter got its pros and cons.i admire some fren that their mum like a fren v them.maybe my sis 5 years older than me,so she is closer to my mother.and i m de youngest and have more gap v my mum.i know my mum very love me.but mayb she not realize the method is wrong.now i go negeri9 to study,i very sad coz nobody help her do housework anymore.i lesser at home and she will more care bout me but i feel its not enough love from her.everytime i tell her bout my scl activities or any competition,but she just put 1 ear to hear.i really sad coz my mum not share my things.i got 1 aunty is jiannjiunn’s mother.i have been stay at his house when i work at ti.but jj is not at home.so i need to face v his mum.beginning i very scare cos scare cant communicate well v his mum.but just a few days,i can feel aunty’s nice and friendly treat.she scare me cant suit the environment or feel shy there,she try to talk or ask me everything and willing share anything v me.i want to express great gratitude to her caring for these few months at ti.can be said that every morning she buy breakfast for me to work.even i not very close v her coz just live v her few days but she willing lend her ear to noe my things.i can get the love from her.she assume me as her half daughter as she has 3 son no daughter at home.i very happy.as i finis the job n get back home,i feel she is hesitated me to leave.that is my true feeling..act my mum n me just a tiny prob,just she assume me as a small gal in her heart.i wan to get a position in her heart.i wan get respect as i grow up.i love my mum..1st month at kmns,everytime thinking of my parents are older and older day by day,i cant stand to gv out my tears..they are the power source for me to study..thankful that i have a complete family,have grandma ,grandba,daddy,mummy and 4 other sibling.wish my parents can live healthy and stay happy 4eva.